Babble

   Daddy has told me I need to blog more often even when there isn't necessarily something to blog about. I of course seem to have trouble with this....what do I talk about when I don't have a sense of direction? At least when we have had even the briefest of moments there is something to write about. When I don't have that I seem to just babble about nothing....then again maybe that nothing comes to something.
   The two of us have been off. So horribly off that instead of being like the attractive side of magnets we are the opposite sides, constantly repealing one another. Trying so hard to connect yet this invisible force pushes us backward. I keep trying to blame it on stress. There for about a week and a half to two weeks I was dealing with pain that basically took me out of life, and then this past week Daddy has been dealing with having shingles. Neither one of us...me more than Daddy...paid much attention to the things that needed to get done.
   Because of this "ocean" between us I've found that it's become harder to just be as it was. Daddy said last night in the beginning I had a driving force that really seemed to push me to be submissive and that lately I've been lacking that. I've also noticed that though he still dominates me and I follow his rules, he seems to be adrift from me and doesn't seem as present with me. Because of that my submissiveness has declined rapidly and I've just become this girl that does what she's told to do with walls up. We've discussed it and now we are both aware of where the other one is coming from and all things are understood.
    However, Daddy has asked me to ask other subs if they have ever gone through something similar and what steps were taken by them to rediscover their submissiveness? Was it something their Dom did that helped, or was it steps they took within themselves to bring it back? Any answers are appreciated in any form given.
   I suppose maybe I should just start back at square one. Seeing Daddy as he is, my Dom and I his sub. Maybe if I just focus on the things that drove us to this at the start then I will find that fire again. Also, Daddy stepping up and setting me straight more often than he has been may help. Sometimes I think that external "smack" back to reality is what helps the most.