Up To Date

   Not much has been happening the the world of Daddy and I as of late. Honestly it has been more vanilla than anything else recently. However, giving the benefit of the doubt life has been....demanding.
   Daddy had his son, I always have my daughter, his son's birthday came, and so did a visit from Daddy's brother, a party was planned and happened....not much time for our other side of life. Sometimes I feel like we lead two separate lives. The side that is normal to average society, and then behind closed doors the D/s life. Problem is we don't often get those moments for closed doors. Is it normal to try to keep the two so separate? Would there truly be a drastic change in the dynamic if we lived together? I would like to think so....but sadly I am not fortune teller.
   Despite all of that, I have not wavered in my want of Daddy as my Dom. As I also hope that he still feels the same. I know he is easily frustrated, wanting to move farther along our path and yet seems to constantly hit some sort of road block. I've come to accept this as life which as it turns out he doesn't always feel the same. Surprise! We work through it though, I suppose that is what counts.
   The plug has come back recently. Actually, I'm currently wearing it now, sitting at my desk, my ass throbbing from trying to get used to this again. This is the second time this week it has been inserted, and I can say my ass was like a virgin all over again. It hurt so bad good when I put it in, and yet it feels very melancholy. The plug has always been used as an extension of him, when he isn't around and tells me to put it in it is his own way of reminding me from afar that he still has that control. And as much as I love it, despite the pain, it also brings on a bit of a lonesome feeling. Eh...maybe I'm just in a mood.
   Any way..... I suppose I felt the need to write that we are still here, still doing what it is we do, still trying to make it better. Some days are breakthroughs, others are set backs, but we are still on the ride. Cresting the tops, and holding on for dear life through the falls. As usual, it's always worth it :)