Chugging Along

   I really want to be one of those people who blogs more often than once in a blue moon!! However, it's hard for me to seem to find time. Oh well, I will eventually get there.
   Daddy and I are still taking things slowly, but definitely dabbling in things here and there. Lots and lots of talking and checking in with each other. Mentally I am being more active in my submission. Trying to make sure I'm not losing control over myself, which is sometimes harder for me than I thought. I've been looking up books to read on kindle. I've found lists of what I am assuming is reputable books and downloaded a couple of them. I've found a lot of them say extremely similar things, most of which I've learned through reading blogs online and looking things up. I still like to read things though. You never know what interesting snippet you'll find.
   Recently I ordered some new butt plugs and a crop with Daddy's instructions. Daddy has tried the crop out on me and ohhhhh my goodness, I'm in love! The plugs that I got are a set of three (S,M,L) with a baby blue jewel on the end of them. They are a definite step up from the plug that I've had, not as heavy, and instead of silicone they are stainless steel. The small one is to small for me, but the medium one is bigger than the plug I had been using. Daddy put the medium one in me on Sunday this last week. Holy ass fire!!! Daddy slid it in slowly, but when it was at the peak point where it's the biggest part of the bulb I was like ow ow ow and Daddy said kept saying relax relax relax and just popped it the rest of the way in!!! I sat up straight! I just sat there holding myself up and breathing letting the waves of pain wash through me and waiting for them to calm down. After a minute or two I was fine and then I started enjoying myself more. This plug being bigger I could feel better, but being lighter made it easier to wear. With my old one I could manage to wear it for maybe 2-3 hours. This new plug I've worn up to almost 5 hours. I love the coolness of the steel as it first goes in to.
   There are a few reasons for the plugs. One being Daddy considers anal a prize. I'm not sure if he would want to do anal frequently, but I know that he absolutely wants to do it more often than we currently do..(once in four years).. The next reason is because I am completely curious about how anal can be pleasurable. A lot of my fantasies for years have always included anal in them, despite the fact that I don't do it. The thought of anal helps me get off when I'm masturbating....I can only imagine how intense the orgasm would be if I was actually having anal! The third reason is I want to feel like I've accomplished something. For some reason anal has turned into a hurdle for me, and it's one that I would like to conquer. I feel like afterwards Daddy would be so proud of me, and I want to feel his pride.